No turning back now

Hey guys! 

So guess what came in the mail yesterday...DRUMROLL PLEASE!!! 

Just wanted to prove how big the box all that stuff came in was..ignore the laundry!

That's right, all the stuff I need to get this show on the road! Now, I'm not going to go on and on about how huge the needles are, or how terrible this is all going to be. Let's just face the facts, we chose this, so I'm going to deal with it...without complaining! ;) Monday is officially the start date! I start my 7 am appointments(which I'd rather complain about these than the needles!) Monday morning, and as long as everything looked good and suppressed, I start my stims on Sunday evening! Matt and I were discussing how weird it was that I could be pregnant this time next month. 

Speaking of Matt, let's talk about how awesome that guy is!

I can never get a normal picture with him ;)

 His birthday was on Wednesday...he's an old man now. Or he's only 23, I can't remember which one. ;) but anyways, he's been awesome through all of this. He takes me on drives when I'm feeling anxious, buys me hot cocoa because caffeine is out of the picture, and takes me to target to wander around at least once a week. He's been all around the greatest husband a girl could ask for. Ok ok, mushiness over! 

I'll be back next week to keep you all updated! Till next time! 

Torie

Hey everybody!

Matt and I in the elevator before the class

Well, today was a big day for us! We had our injection class, and it was actually really fun(we did however get to use a "rubber tummy" so I doubt doing the real thing will be that fun!) First, they took us up to a little classroom and showed us a slideshow that was all about the IVF process. We learned exactly what they would be doing during the cycle, and gave us the hard copy of our calender. She then went over all of our medications, discussed what the 7 am labs and ultrasounds will be like, and went over how the retrieval and transfer days will go. Then, the fun part stared...

 All the fun stuff we got to play with

Me learning how to use Follitism, which is one of my

 most common injections that comes in pen form

She gave us one of all the medications we will be getting, and all the needles and alcohol pads. She gave us our "rubber tummy" and went over exactly how we will be giving my injections. All the medications use different types and sizes of needles. We have to mix some of the medications ourselves, and others come premixed in a pen that we just set our dosage and inject. She went step by step with us, and we were allowed to actually follow along and give the injections ourselves. Being able to prepare, and give the injections to the rubber tummy ourselves, made the shots seem much less intimidating. Matt enjoyed taking pictures of me mixing the medications, and learning how to inject the different sized needles. He would help me when I needed it, but sit back and watch when I seemed determined. We had a great time learning this scary process together.

 Apparently I was very focused on mixing my meds

...ignore the double chin ;)

The "rubber tummy" that bravely took all my injections for me ;)

Although we had a good time learning all of this, we also got a ton of paperwork..our medication order, our hard copy calender, our consent forms, paperwork on where to inject all of the medications, how to prepare for retrieval and transfer days, and oh so much more. I spent the first two hours after getting home from the class trying to decipher my med order, and another hour after that on making my calender for the next six weeks. Our medications are being ordered on Wednesday, and should be here by the end of the week, and we officially start the IVF cycle two weeks from yesterday. As we stood in the elevator on the way out of the doctor's, Matt asked "are you ready for this?" I told him I was until I got all this paperwork! Of course, now I am a little overwhelmed. II think it is finally hitting me that this is actually happening! The nurse we were working with today refused to say "if you get pregnant"...instead she says "when you get pregnant." I loved that, and it makes me feel like this is going to all be worth it. Well, i'll just leave you with all that information that is currently circling around in my mind!

Until next time!

Torie

Hey everyone!

I just wanted to get on and write a quick post to say Happy Halloween! Now, normally I don't dress up for Halloween because I never have a reason to, but we were in the running for the costume contest at work this year! We all dressed up as the Ninja Turtles, and our boss was Splinters..the rat.

All the girls and I dressed up

The jack o' lantern cake I made..It was SO yummy!

We looked pretty dang awesome if I do say so myself. After work, Matt and I sat out on the porch (In the 30 degree weather) and handed out candy to all the little ones, and that was super fun. We saw lots of lady bugs, princesses, and of course the Incredible Hulk. All in all, we had a pretty low key, but fun Halloween!

Matt, Daisy and I before we started passing out candy

I also wanted to get on to say...

Only 22 more days till it all begins! I'm not counting down or anything ;)

I never thought of myself as someone who would have a blog. In the beginning, I was writing this blog mainly because I was missing my family, and I wanted to keep them updated on the things going on in my life away from them. Then when Matt and I got diagnosed with infertility, I started researching with all of my free time. I ran in to a lot of different blogs, written by women who are dealing with the same thing we are. That is when I decided I wanted to start writing my blog based on what we are going through infertility wise. I guess I am just hoping that maybe somebody will stumble upon this page while doing research, and it will help them in some way.

I never thought I would get such a big response to this blog. I was very hesitant to post my blog on Facebook, or Instagram, just because I was afraid I might get a negative response...but the opposite has happened. People that I never even thought would be interested, are emailing me telling me how much they love reading my posts. I am getting comments from strangers telling me they are praying for me, and friends from high school who are telling me how proud they are of the decisions we've made. It warms my heart to know that so many people care about us. We had no idea that we would get so much love and support form everybody around us. The next two months are going to be exciting, emotional, and hopefully end with a positive outcome, and I can't wait to share it with all of you guys. As for the next three weeks, I am constantly watching the clock and the calendar, wishing the start date would just hurry up and get here! Here's to hoping I don't go crazy patiently waiting ;)

Until Next Time!

Torie